SpeeDOmeter

Speeding down the highway on our way to one of the distant spot....a thought rushed in my mind...what if we happen to meet a speed breaker...
Well my thought turned into reality ....

Walking for one and half hours on the national highway...with the hope in the heart of getting some help from someone was really a feeling out of the world...i was not worried..i was not angry...all i was ...Excited...

Never had such an experience....baggages...empty water bottles..dust.... wind... the vehicle that turned out dreams into ashes ...and some strange faces...were our companion...



Ah...What an experience!!!

ExpEct D UneXpected

I never celebrated Diwali in way that will made me miss it...
So..when people started wishing me "happy diwali "with curved line on their faces
it doesnot gave me any different feeling....

it was yet another day for me in Hyderabad..
I have quite a few memorable days but never thought that this diwali will get added to the list.

New dress,Chicken Biriyani,Baskin robin "rasberry flavored" icecream,
pinnapple cake, and an event made it different
....unexpecetd...and wierd diwali...

Understood that even if you r alone in a crowded room... God always send somebody for Rescue.
:)

Move on!

The smell of the monsoon,the touch of raindrops,

the warmth of the hot cup ,juxtaposed memories, the mixed feelings of being alone on this foreing land
 
made me wisk away all the uncanny thoughts......made be in love with whatever i have....
 
I had the most strangest weekend ....it would be a bookmark on the pages of my so called weird yet
 

beautiful life...
 
When strange things happen in your life ...reacting in the strangest way is quite normal...
 

This is what i learnt yet again...:-)

Twists and turns

Life is full of twists and turns...

Am just learning to be a bit more careful...

Am out of the childish thoughts,out of the realm of false wonder....out of the dream of finding Wonderland...

Learning the hard reality ......

Trying to be a perfect Human being!

LaZy & M3

Ah...i met with a friend recently...
i met him when i came to the new city....
Just cant live without him...he is restricting me from doing all kinda
lively work and wants me to be with him always...
i am also following him blindly as i am feeling comfortable being with him...
Spending all day with him is now real fun for me...

Its Lazy & Me...!!

When to laugh....

When to cry....
All these mixed feelings...
is making my life dry....!


Phew!
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I thought ...i scribbed...and finally i found out that "i am alone in this Empty world"

Its contradictory but its true ....

if the world was not empty them i would never have the feeling of being alone.

Ah....its wiered and hopeless...

i want to go back 10 yrs...which was the best phase of my life..

Those big birthday parties,gifts,sudden surprises,paper fights,poor marks....ah...

missing them big time...

iLLoGical ThouGHts

Dressed in the usual casuals the girl was on her way ….


coming out of the house ,pushing the iron rails…the shrill noise made her feel a little shy…

She was alone…all her own …the weather was humid …there was dust everywhere….

For her it’s a usual thing..she was not expecting anythng ….

The humid weather made her sweat…make her feel tired but she was walking down the streets.

The people in the streets seemed to be very happy to her…as she felt alone and left out in this big world…

No body was waiting for her at the end of the road…

Thoughts pounced in her mind…memories of how she was few years back…feelings of how she is now..



She smiled ….and kept on walking towards her destination.!!

Probability....

Life always teach us new things everyday....
being thousand miles away from home i am learning everyday...
Made few  friends whom i thought could count upon...but when i wanted them most they never turned up...
and got few friends in disguise whom i never thought could count upon..but they proved to b the best of the lot...
may be this is called Probability....
u dont know what is the chance....

life at hyderabad...

its been a month that am in hyderabad...life is completely different here..
the people are different...so is the food and  everythng....
i miss my family and frnds everyday.....
tho the city is beautiful...there is lot more things to see...to enjoy...but for me somethng missing...
i miss Kolkata...my city everyday....
i miss the people here...
the thing that i have learned being away from home...kolkata...family ...friends is that life is too short and there is nothing as important than family.....
Missing home...:(

leaving....:(

always thought n got excited with the idea of leaving home n staying away ...
but today when i have to leave for real...the feeling is bad...
staying away from maa baba 1000 miles away is a real pain....not feeling happy...
dnt even got the chance of celebrating my birthday wid family..
happiness n sadness r the two faces of the same coin,.....:(..u got to have them.




gonna miss my family,friends n my city....


:)

Got a break atlast...happy me!!!

hoping to get best out of it.....tingtiting

kya pata aur kya kya likha hain mere nasib mein.!!!

waiting for the day when things will again become smooth n happy...

iDLE

Another day to idle away….

Another Bharat bandh….. Well a mode of relief for all who have good heavy work…

For me all are same…everyday….

Huh…at least got few ppl along to spend the day….

Do these strikes really bring some kinda result? Well am not very much aware of it….but every time there is a bandh this question keep poking me..!!

K

Untitled

From the last few days am feeling short of words n expressions….not finding topics ….nothing to blog….

Is in a semi confused….absolutely lost state…

Nothing is working …..Things are going terribly wrong….. :(

Hell….is here for me…..more like caught in a spider web…hard to be set free.. still trying

Still the glimmer of +ve hopes are not yet over for me…

There is always light at the end of every dingy tunnel….so hoping to get some light (it may be of bulb or halogen)…some day….. :)

Yesss!!!!

Super excitement…….Super match…….Super Goals……Super Sunday…!!

I knew Germany wud play well today…and yes…they proved me right completely…

When Klose hit the first goal in the 20^th minute I got the vibe that its “my team’s day”.

Then Podolski on 32 min….n then Again by Muller n Muller….

Though I definitely felt bad upon the wrong referee decision ….but what I concluded after watching the overall match is that even if England had their 2^nd goal it wud have no effect on the final outcome…..

Yipee…..

Germany!! Germany!!! J

Bla Bla Bla

Mood swings are becoming frequent these days…

When will I become free from all these????

……hell…hell !!!

 Wanna b away from all troubles....:(   :(

Geez..!!!   :(:(:(:(

Zoozoo

Phew....this one is my 29th blog...feeling great ...
few months back...i even dint thot of writing blogs...i used to follow one of my frnd's blog.i like his writing and love to read them.he is a complete blogger...
he was the one who insisted me to write...i can still remember his words.


and now blogging has become my hobby..i feel good jotting down my thoughts n sharing it with ppl...


Thanx Zoozoo...Its good to have frnds like him...;)
Cheers to our friendship

ah!!!top 16

Atlast Germany is in top 16...am so happy...

hoping for the best....


at least Klose gonna b in the next match against England...wud b a big watch..


fingers crossed.

nasty feeling

The streets of  Kolkata are full wid “Gaddas”…big big “Gaddas”…

It rained heavily today…

One Gadda made me felt nasty when  its muddy dirty mixture of rain n drain water got splashed all over my dress while I was waiting in the auto stand….

GRrr……pretty nasty feeling…

Love the essence of rain but hate its effect….

In Love

No one in the world can say that he/she is not in love…..

Every person love something….love comes in many form…shapes n sizes….:)

Its relative…..

Its is up to us to find the things we love n to keep loving it…..for me loving can give  utmost satisfaction n can help to keep oneself happy..

I love a lot of things…it ranges from shopping to loving the  people close to me..…..

 "Take away love, and our earth is a tomb."
--Robert Browning

none,,,

feeling helplessly hopeless....
a "bad feeling" day...powered by a cracky irritating throat...runny nose...
hairs got tangled.....


a perfect Mad gal....:(

CuppaMania :)

The Fifa World Cup is on…..so is the fever of watching n njoying it to the fullest by the people of the World, India, Kolkata , my Baba n Brother…

I also love watching football…n m consistent in watching most of the matches….

My favorite is Germany n I wish that they win this time…..

i cud remember 4 yrs back went Germany n Brazil were in the final….i was the only one who was supporting the Germans….thr was yellow supporters all around me….:(

Well yesterday there was a match of Brazil….i 2 planned to watch it but could not keep my eyes open till 12 coz of long n tiring day……but no wonder my dreams were broken by my father n brother’s roar…”G O A L”…..

“Out of utmost xcitement how can a person forget its 1 am !!!!”…my instant thot…

But aftr regaining my conscious completely I realized that I cant blame them like this….aftrall its World Cup…J

Down the memory lane

From August 2006:first day in college….all dressed up wid my new shirt, trouser, tie n polished shoes…..

Interaction wid seniors…hordes of ragging..Some wr pathetic n some funny…..but I njoyed them thoroughly…

Freshers: lotza fun…..dance wid seniors….good food….n new frnds

Got the idea of wat is calld a Bawal in an engineering colg….smashing of glasses,tube lights…..slogans…banners…supporting senior even widout knowing the proper cause

Felt to b a part of it…..

Semester exams …..learnt the tactics of collecting Mcq answrs from others…..

Learnt the meaning n use of many 3 lettr words………

Hanging out wid frnds at “kakar dokan”….having masala cha….lays ,kurkure n pepsi….

Giving proxy ….bunking lectures…going out fr muvis…

Treats n bday parties……wid a secret wish of skipping my own…

Night out at colg becoz of strikes n lockout….

Colg fest …jharis….dance …few silly proposals…

To June 15, 2010:last day of my colg….end of d semester exam….all done…..

At the end of the day Can say that I am a graduate rather an Engineer now…tho the result is  not out yet…but hoping to pass them….

P>O>P

My brother is a complete game  freak……he hate his studies because he love computer games more….

I saw him playing hell lotza games which are for me really difficult….to be honest those requires a lotza patience n interest…well for me blogging or reading a story book is a better option…

I heard from him only about a game called Prince Of Persia….he suggested. forced me to play but  was not successful ….:).

But finally when the movie released I watched it n got overwhelmed by the height of its imagination.

“Chase for a  dagger that can reverse time…”

To b very honest  liked the Prince more than the Plot ;)

Emotion---Demotion

A person wid too much of emotion in any field…career or personal lyf is destined to be demoted…

There are emotional atyacharis everywhere…..

One of my experience…

Few months back I was standing in a queue of railway reservation ticket counter …..its so painful but cant help…my fathr still thinks its bettr to buy tickets directly frm the counter than going fr e-tickets…L

Anyways I was waiting fr my turn…….there wr about 10 ppl before me in the line….suddenly I heard a familiar voice….as I turnd back I saw our neighbour….all smiling wid no reasn(but I discovered the reasn lattr).first tym in her lyf was she so happy seeing me I gs….

AUNty: arey..wat are u doing here?

Me: (huh…..wat m I supposed to do in a reservation counter!!!!)Going to kharagpur.

AUNty: o acha acha….fr wat reasn?

Me: (why r neighbours always interested in everything!!!)Explained….

Aftr a bit of chitchat she said in a low voice …..

Wud u mind if I stand infront of u in d queue?

She xplained me few reasons…..(pathetic!!)

Anyways swayed by silly Emotions I ced “yes”…

Aftr few minutes when I was in the third position of d Q…the person giving the ticket announced that its lunch tym n aunty wud me the last persn to get the ticket b4 lunch.

(damn!!!!...)

Aunty took the ticket ….smiled at me….n went away….

This is what happens……Emotion always cause Demotion!!

Poor me…as always…..:(

Kala Khatta Gola

Whenever the idea of hanging out wid frnds comes we thnk of having cappuchino,smoothies,ice tea n all…..but yesterday I had a different experience altogether.

I went out wid a frnd of mine to d local market …..did some chutput shopping n had “ Kala khatta Gola”……its yummy…I neva had one before so I was was really v xcited ….

Ppl mite thnk wats so happening about having a “Gola”….but for me it was…..strange isn’t?

I njoyed every bit of it…it was fun having the icy stuff wid sweet syrup ….hehe….

A perfect pocket saver….in d hot humid summer.;)

Dead for a second……

Thawed, puzzled, sad, morosed ….aftr hearing d news of losing some known people in the accident of Gyaneshwari express.

Still cud feel d goose bumps….its such a horrified news….never xpected that 2010 wud bring such a disaster….

Disaster aftr disaster …. B it on air or on earth.

Watching terrible news on tv is one experience but to realize them completely by bng a part of the lose scrambles all the feeling n emotions.

Terrible…..there  is no words to describe the mixed bag of emotions…

The only question that is bothering me now …

Are we heading towards d Ultimate disaster?

EGG~~JAMS

Knock knock!! Its EggJam times…..!!

Egg n jam …..a strange combination and can neva taste good n for me it neva provided a good xperience…..

Weneva eggjams come I start missing a lot of thngs….some makes sense n some don’t…..

Eggjam is the tym wen I need to read d books related to my course bt i miss reading story books…..wen eva I c the oversized books I feel dizzy…..y y y????????//????????

I miss going out wid frnds,hanging out wid them….the chutput gossip….all seems to b far away from me….i seem to b deserted in a room wid hell lotza books…!!!

I was neva a bookworm….dnt have the calibr of mugging up the huge amount of info that leads to Nowhere…..

want to b free from d world of EGGJAMS....

:-(..:-(Eagerly waiting for the smiley to change....;)….!!!!!!!

Easy to b Complex

Its raining heavily outside….

Feeling lazy n tired 2day….aftr a hectic day wid jumbled Emotions… m not at all having the enthu to study…

I neva participated in Drama in eithr school or colg because it dint interestd me….or may b m shy in playing characters in front of ppl….

But I discovered lately that m a protagonist in one of d million plays directed by d Almighty……

Life is so complex….man….it sucks literally….

but I am still managing it wid a smile…….:)....Cheers to me....lola...

Dead Poets Society...

again watched the movi....

loved n njoyed the character of Robin Williams as John Keating.....

I loved the way he taught the students about the meaning of poetry,love n understanding...

it showed how to view world around u .....n to suck the marrow out of life....

i wonder y not we taught the same way the meaning of lyf n world around us in easy term??!!!

one of my best watch....

PHEW!!!

Ah....!!

at last got respite from the hot sultry summer.....

it rained 2day...and i got drenched....

i felt the raindrops soothing me n my soul .....

it was an awesome feeling...hard to share... only 2 b felt.....:)

Kites flying high :)

D day has arrived…..its the release of the much awaited muvi of d yr….“Kites”….

D film has bn hyped so mch coz Hritick n Barbara Moori are sharing screen 2gethr…..

Well m also pretty mch interested in watching d muvi bt need to delay my watch for few more days coz I got the news that the price of the ticket is too mch fr me to afford….!Gosh its 310 bucks at Inox….

Cant afford…!!!!

“intezar kab tak hum karenge yeh bata…”lolzzz

wat.....

Last yr Aila….this yr Laila..!!!frrrr….

Bad names…bad effects….

destruction is the hot discussion of the world.....be it natural or man-made

Natural destruction can still be tolerated...but not man made.

ppl are fighting for no good reasn...each day soldiers are dying...Maoists creating halubalu all ova...n the powerful ppl simply watching....n ours is calld d democratic country..!!damn...!!

Look...who is tweeting!!

Going through d newspaper today I was thoroughly surprised on seeing a write up…it was one of the smallest column wch says “hey I am on twitter at last…follow me…”….guess who it is ??it is none oder than Amitabh Bacchan!!

Omg …he has also started to tweet….i dnt understand whether these celebrities tweet out of pleasure or to hv more of followers.!!

God knows…n who am I to ask dese questions…lol….

Happy tweeting …wat else can I comment..!: D

*****

terribly short of words today...:(

feel as if under some spell....:O

Cuckoo bumblebee

I discovered that ….

I am leading a lyf of “Cuckoo bumblebee”….:D

Y GROW UP?!

Tuesday morning.. my dream got shattered by my moms voice…”wake up…..wen will u grow up n take up some responsibility…!!”

Y grow up? what is the harm of bng a child all my life..!!y cant a child take up the responsibility? or rather y ppl need to act maturely to take up responsibily?

I kno there is no one to answer my questions or provide soln to my silly problems…bt I cant help myself from thnking in this way…I dnt want to grow up…I dnt want to be another mature human being lost in the sea of hi-funda thot process…

I want to act differently…want to have lotza colors…

:D as I alwaz say….take a chillpill :D

Morning Blues :(

i hate Mondays....uuufff...its the beginning of another hopeless wk....

i hate slogging ...same timetable..same work is making me sick....

but need to buck up:(

y Monday dint give the feel of Sunday??:(......tough question to be answered....

Sultry Sunday Afternoon

Sundays makes me happy alwaz becoz I get all my family members at one place. we have our lunch together, share funny talks sometimes serious….so it becomes a full family day for me.

Aftr having lunch 2day I sat on the couch n was going through a magazine whose hot discussion was about global warming and its effect. But I really not felt interested reading it because I myself was feeling the heat….its so hot nowadays….it is really becoming difficult to live life widout Ac’s and coolers….one cannot think of staying in the room widout fan…

The tremendous and abnormal increase in temperature is one of the major effects of the global warming itself…The increased use of cars and vehicles are increasing the amount of poisonous gases in the air which is resulting in the heating up of the atmosphere…

If we don’t take steps to reduce this then we all gonna suffer more….this sudden thought made me open the magazine once again.

The article said that the combined radiative forcing due to increases in carbondioxide ,methane and nitrous oxidee is the largest climate driver and its rate of increase during the industrial era is very likely to have been unprecedented in more than 10,000 years.

Are we not responsible for all this?? Y not we join hands and put some effort in reducing the causes that are producing it…??

Wat say??

Plan...;)

Planning to think n work in a different way today.lyf is getting 2 pathetic nowadays with wierdo thots.so i have taken a resolution of changing my way of thnking and viewing life from a different angle so that it gives me some sort of relief....
fingers crossed...
plan n work is the theme of the day..

LEFT ALONE...

My sleep was broken by the sudden ring of my cellphone….the ring felt very irritating …I searched for my phone with my eyes closed. it kept on ringing …my hands started to search it with more speed….not jst to receive it bt to stop that irritating noise…

As the search completed the finger did its job…

I said “hello” and I cud hear a familiar voice from the other end…I opened my eyes and suddenly realized that it was a “goodbye” call…that realization made me sad…it was my best friend who was leaving me ….i cud hear the voice….we both were sad…

The call ended and i was left alone ….

Some people are so precious and their role are so important in ur life that u miss wen they leave u….it gives u lots of pain and sometyms this pain cannot be expressd in words.

MISS U PROCHUR...;)

Dated:15.5.2010

Dreams...:)

I dreamt …. I am still dreaming…and I will continue to dream

When I was five yrs of age I dreamt of being a good artist…coz at that time I learnt the use of lines and curves, shades and light…but that dream got faded away becoz of the extreme pressure of studies….

Some said that nothng can replace education and it is vital of all the dreams….but this cant let me stop from dreaming…I dreamt of playing guitar and drums….

I had few weird dreams…dreams which will make only me happy and they are important to me…..dreams are the doors to our subconscious mind and no one can put bars on them….

Each n every person has his own interpretation of dreams …

For me some dreams are baseless bt still i alwaz feel good while dreaming.

I dream by default… Keep dreaming and enjoy them…

No person has the right to rain on your dreams…..

FAREWELL

As I entered the classroom I was surprised…it was an unique sight…some laughing ,some giggling, some clicking, some writing big words on shirts which made the shirts look weird….

This was the picture of the final day of my colg…

This was how everyone was marking the end of colg life….Some was behaving so weird…it seems like they gonna lose everything aftr colg or wont have anything aftr this….for me these are nothng other than show offs…

I went inside the class ,sat on my regular bench, waiting for my other dear frnds to come…in the meanwhile some one came wid his shirt which was in his opinion wud store the good old memories of friends….but how?

He gave me the marker n asked me to write something. In that short moment I began to think that why this guy doing all this as I pretty well knw that he gonna throw or rathr his mom gonna throw this shirt away aftr few days. Can memories n good thots be preserved this way? Nopes…I guess it can neva be done….

For me end of colg lyf doesnot mark the end of good frndship ,feelings n good memories…it just provides a new beginning of gaining few more of them.:)

LIFE ....A PANCAKE

Four years back I neva thought that I will learn to fight both in positive and negative ways.i always have a fight …each day….it may be wid the locals of the local trains or wid people around.Today when I was returning from colg I happened to get into a running train.i dnt kno how I made it…bt I seriously did that…the feeling was different n great.i cud see the train slowly leaving the station ,I had a sinking feeling bt suddenly I felt that I cud make it n I started to increase my pace and seeing me running the lady who was almost outside the gate of the ladies compartment gave me the space to place my feet n I made it…..whoops…it was an experience of life tym for me…

After placing my feet and almost managed to get in I felt or rather realized that nothing is impossible in life…it the risk that u need to take with a bit of courage n life always give u the opportunity…

We need to be tough from outside n soft from inside …similar to a pancake…the more u grill the pancake from outside the more tastier it becomes… the softness should reside inside else it will not taste good…

Just a thought….;)

UNREST…..

Unrest is the burning issue of the day..as the things are,there is a growing dissatisfaction everywhere..Corruption is rampant everywhere.Academic institutions are no exceptions to it.These have polluted the students’ mind and created unrest in their hearts.

Growing frustration is the root cause..an average student has nothing but frustration in store for him,especially in the matter of employment…..most of them are not given chance of proving their capabilities…this results in aimlessness and joining of one course to the other without a particular aim or object in life.The want to take degree,and think that it will act as a passport to a secure future…But the question remains…Is it worth?